Boys.......

I'd like to write about what's right in my life right now.  Unfortunately I'm stuck in Debbie Downer mode as much fun as I've been having and all....

The other Tara is convinced that I need a boyfriend.  Like I said before, I'm not disagreeing with this statement.  The problem?  I'm not seeing anyone right now that I would even consider to be "long-term" material.  Let's talk about my choices right this minute.

I've got three of them totally up in my shit.

Donovan - we've discussed previously.  Besides just generally not being my type, he's got this massive amount of facial hair that I would be unable to even deal with.  Yuck.  He does get points for effort Sunday night for actually going to the liquor store, buying what I'd drink and smelling good when he came over.  Other negatives?  Well, he's just weird.  I can't really explain it.  Some of the shit he says is just strange.  Oh, and he gets high just to function in the morning.....

Doug - Apparently I met him at the STP concert when he was hanging out with my friend Wendy.  I remember seeing Wendy, but I don't remember meeting him.  He friended me on Facebook on Thursday asking me out. Umm, again, not my type and at 43, too old.  He's kinda being stalkerish, so I'll probably cut him loose from my friends list & block him any day now.  He's all like "Do you like the water?  I've got a ski boat and a house on the lake and blah, blah, blah."  All I'm hearing is the blah, blah, blah, here because I really do look for at least somewhat of a physical attraction right off the bat and if I don't remember meeting him, obviously there wasn't one.

Chad - came out of nowhere.  I thought he had the hots for Nicole, but turns out it's me.  My bad for being friendly to him when we're at the bar he works at.  Yesterday the other Tara posted that she was searching for a boyfriend for me, which generated a bunch of comments and even more mail to my Facebook inbox.  Chad wrote me the following message:

Are u really looking or not cause i would be honored to be yours.. You are beautiful, funny & from what i can tell a great young woman.. Ohh not to mention we r compatible very much so & like i said last night i am a one woman man i want the commitment.. Hope you are having an amazing day & it was fun seeing u last night Ms. Tara 

to which I replied:

Aww, you're so sweet :) Really, my life is such a mess right now that I wouldn't ever drag anyone into it. Hopefully it settles down at some point and I can get back to being me, which is not the Tara you see at the bar all drunk and retarded... Someday I'll have a somewhat normal life, lol! Good seeing you last night. I'm sure I'll be around again soon :) 

and received this back:

Hey i feel ya hun.. Maybe you could use someone in your life that could be a shoulder to lean on & talk to about life.. As a scorpio we are people who care deeply & want to help others without expectations & i can tell u r a good person & mother you just need some positive reinforcement.. I can honestly tell by how u act that your world is chaos cause going out every night & getting messed up is cause u want to avoid whats in front of you.. See i want to get to know u outside of the bar cause i know without a doubt that you are an amazing, intelligent & wonderful woman & mother. I dont know whats going on in your life or the friends you have but i would be honored to find out & be there for you.. Its my nature to help others.. Come on we are both water signs & so compatible not just relationship but in friendship also.. Hope to hang soon away from bar & get to know each other on a different level.. Ttyl & have faith all will be great for you soon.. Xoxoxo 

I still haven't replied.  When I look at this, I see a dude who is more in tune with his feminine side than I am.  I see WEAK, WEAK, WEAK, PLEASE STOMP ALL OVER ME!!!  I can't help it......  I'm not saying that I like guys to beat me up or any of that stupid stuff, my my God dude, this is not gonna get you in my pants.....  Not that it sounds like he's trying to get there anyways.....

Ugh, yeah, those are the three trying the hardest.  The three that I'd like to try a little harder?

Blue Eyes - Of course.  He was at my house while I was at work today because he was working down the street and saw a fire in the hood.  He was on lunch he decided to check it out and it turns out the house a couple down from mine was on fire.  He called me from my kitchen because apparently we're close enough that he can walk up in my house when I'm not there....  Why can't I come home to find him in my bed?  I haven't seen this boy in well over a week and his texts are sporadic.  Here we are again, boy all up in my shit for weeks, then backs off with no explanation other than he's got alot going on right now.  Umm, ok, well you could talk to me about all the other stuff, why not any of this?  Ugh...

Tattoo Guy - Come on Mike, hook a girl up.  It's obvious from him asking about me at the party he's still somewhat interested.  I just screwed that one up briefly by being a little too needy there for a minute.....  I'm better now, I promise.....  I suppose I could take the first step and text him since his number is still in my phone, but it would just be easier if Mike would tell him I'm interested.  You know, kinda like middle school stuff.....

The third one......  Well I guess there isn't one right now.  I met some pretty kick ass guys last week at the concerts, so if one of them would call and want to go out or something I'd totally be down for it.  We'll see what happens with all that.

There are several others that are just sort of hovering in the dreaded "friend zone".  They're around, but I'm not sure if they're even worth putting any time into.  I know, I know, most good relationships start out with friends, blah, blah, blah......  God, I need to get out to some different places or something.  Everyone is starting to look and act the same. 

Maybe I just need to go home and hop in the cold ass shower and reevaluate my priorities.......