Teetering on the edge of full blown manic today. I really need to go to the doctor and be evaluated I think. Although, some days I like feeling like this. Some days are fucking great. I'm the most productive person that you could possibly know. Medication would only sedate me and make me not fun anymore...... Ugh, whatever.
Hmmm, so what's been going on with me? Well, lots I suppose. I don't know. The kids went back to school last week. One's a freshman and the other in 8th grade and I've got Little E "riding on the backs of the little kids like they're horses" at daycare. Hey, their words, not mine......
What else? Oh shit, that's right, check it out. My beloved Kyle, whom I spent 9 months of my life with, told me Friday night when I ran into him that he got his new girlfriend knocked up. He's finishing out the next two months on his job then coming back here to live. Umm, really? We didn't work out because of the 28 on/28 off thing and now you're moving back? WTF? Oh well. I tried out a new bar on Friday night with Nicole and it turns out the same old people from the rest of the bars in town were there. Kyle, Dave and assorted others greeted us as we walked in. Damn, I was hoping to run into Blue Eyes because that's one of his spots and ran into all them. Awkward for sure...... The only thing that this particular place had going for it was that they have an awesome covered bar with HUGE tv's for all my sports needs. I may go back. Who knows....
Gav's 13th birthday was yesterday. What did the kid want? A new pair of cleats, a cheap mp3 player and a new sweatsuit. God I love that kid for being the most simple, yet complex kid I've ever met. He also spent all day annoying the living shit out of me because he knew I wouldn't say anything since it was his birthday. Ugh... Luckily we spent most of the day at the soccer fields sweating our asses off, so I only had to listen to it on the way there and back.
I guess that's about it, nothing too exciting. I went out both Friday and Saturday night, but that's not something I really want to talk about because it was a FAIL of epic proportions. Let's just say Friday night after Kyle dropped that bomb, Josh texted me, then totally fucked around with me and Saturday night, I'm not really sure what happened......
Have a good week peeps. I think I have some party pics on my camera if I can locate it from the weekend....
Hey, It's Okay
1 day ago
6 comments:
Yeah... what's this crap with the rotating bar crowd?!?!?! I leave one place to go to another and there they are!!! If I wanted to see a different crowd, maybe we should just stay where we are... and let them cycle through.. no?
~shoes~
All I can say is men are poop.
Well I got a 9th grader that is just as sweet...I feel old now...Feel better cause productive is good...I am a professional procrastinator as luck would have it
Oh Tara, some days are up and some are down. Take it one day at a time and eventually things will get better if only to get worse again later (it is life you know). If you feel like you need some help then get it, no shame in some xanax or whatever meds your doctor thinks you need. Feel better!
Shoes-Maybe you're right. Next time I'll stay in one place and see what happens, lol!
Mejis-why yes, they are....
Just telling it-you're right, productive is good. If only I was as productive as I want to be all the time!!
Sammi-I know, I know. I just hate when I get this way.....
as someone who is officially off my "meds" of 7 years or more, i have to say, don't do it. don't do it unless you think you're gonna kill someone or yourself. in that case, well, yeah, prolly so... and although i never felt "sedated," i feel better now than i have in YEARS. i feel more like me, MORE everything.
annnnd.. i kinda like you just the manic way you are. ;)
Post a Comment