If You Would Have Asked Me

 when I was 16 if I was going to be alive to celebrate my 32nd birthday, I probably would have told you no.  At that point in my life, 32 was old, double my life at that point and I certainly wasn't living a lifestyle that would have permitted me to live this long.  Luckily I came to my senses when I got pregnant just over a year later.  Things haven't been easy, actually I can cite more than a few instances where I've made things so much worse, but I'm moving along ok in my life these days.  My life still isn't where I want it to be, but anymore I'm taking things one day at a time and doing what I can to make sure my boys and I are happy.  That's all I know how to do at this point.  Things will fall into place when they're supposed to, and I'm ok with that.....

My friend Brad came over last night to look at this laptop that I'm trying to get rid of  and we were shooting the shit for a bit.  If you remember correctly, I wrote about him here.  He's pretty much why my life went in the direction it did...  I told him that I had been talking to Nick and his eyes got big.  I gave him the details of what has been going on for the last month and all he could say was, "He's your number one and you're his, you're supposed to be together."  Yeah Brad, you're not the first person to say that to me in the last couple weeks.  I'm still waiting to see what changes Nick has actually made in his life.  We'll have to see, I guess.  Brad and Nick were best friends back in the day and I pretty much ruined that.  It's good to see that everyone has moved past all that and we have gotten on with our lives.  I'm just in such a totally different place these days, I'm not sure how it would ever work.  I wish I had a picture of the two of us to show you guys, but I tore all of those up long ago....  I wish I wouldn't have acted stupid about that stuff, but my heart was broken.  Oh well....

Anywho, everyone have a FABULOUS Hump Day!  I'm heading out for happy hour with a bunch of friends and coworkers for my birthday, so there should be some funny pictures posted tomorrow or Friday, depending on what my hangover will allow......