My iPhone Is Depressed.. It's Making Me Laugh

Last four songs, I shit you not:

He Can Only Hold Her - Amy Winehouse
Bother-Stone Sour
Angel-Aerosmith
Bitches Ain't Shit-Dr. Dre/Snoop

Ahahahaha, nice.  Stupid phone.  Time to reshuffle I suppose.  Perhaps that will get it out of the mood it's in.  I swear, sometimes the thing knows exactly what to play to get to me and further enhance or deteriorate my mood.  Today it's got a mind of it's own.  There are a thousand songs on there and it's picking the weirdest shit.  I reshuffled and got:
Wanna Be A Baller-Lil Troy
Let My Clear My Throat-Dj Kool
What About Your Friends-TLC (Which I totally could have done without seeing as I'm still dealing with those pesky friend issues....)
Man In The Box-Alice In Chains

That's better I suppose.....

So with my last post, I had to dig into some other posts to see what I've disclosed here and there about various things and I was looking for the one post about me seeing the psychic and couldn't find anywhere that I had written it up.  Is it possible that I didn't talk about it at all?  I guess it is.  There has been so much going on that perhaps I forgot to talk about it.  Ok, I just found one reference where I said I'd talk about it, then didn't.  We're good to go...

Back in February my sister convinced me to go see her psychic friend Sharon and that she'd pay for it because she thought I'd really benefit from talking to someone.  That's Melissa for you.  A worrier by nature, who always wants to make sure everything is happy and peaceful.  I really didn't have an opinion one way or the other on things like this.  Do I believe in the paranormal?  Well yeah, kind of, I guess.  After the visit I was truly freaked out. 

Sharon agreed to do the reading at her house.  Melissa and I arrived and she asked me if I wanted her to come in.  Well yeah, duh, I'm not going in there alone.  This chick could quite possibly be a total crazy.  Melissa said she wanted to make sure because sometimes it could get pretty intense.  Umm yeah sister, please come in.  We went into the house and sat around and talked for awhile.  Then Sharon asked me what type of reading I would like.  She suggested the tarot cards.  I said ok and picked from one of the three decks she had in front of me.  It's been a few months since I did this, but I remember three of the cards that she pulled vividly because she was shocked she pulled them.  She did them in a circle, and I don't remember what it all signified, but here's the breakdown of the three major ones.


First off was this:

Man, wtf?

Lucky for me it was in the upright position, which meant:

Upright - The beginning of a new life. As a result of underlying circumstances transformation and change.  Major changes.  The end of a phase in life which has served its purpose.  Abrupt and complete change of circumstances, way of life and patterns of behaviour due to past events and actions.  Alterations.

See people?  I'm getting my shit together.  Believe it or not....

Another one I got?

Umm yeah....

ll Dignified or Reversed - Troubled partnerships and marriages.  Diminished forms of the above.  Broken engagements and contracts.  Sometimes, autism, learning disabilities or allergies.  Hyperactivity. Failure.  Arrogance. Relationship difficulties.  Vanity.  Hypersensitivity.  Misjudgement.  Delayed Happiness.

The other one, I forget now which card it was, but she asked me if I was involved with anyone who didn't live around here.  I said no and didn't give it a second thought.  She said Tara I know you are, are you lying because your sister is here and it's some kind of weird thing?  Umm no.  Really, I had no idea what she was talking about.  She says, Tara are you sure, someone you worked with at one time?  You're not thinking about this hard enough Tara.  He helps you out sometimes.  Fuck.  Ok then.  You got me.  Yeah, there is someone.  I don't even want to go into details about the rest of the conversation about this person.  It was just kind of an ugh feeling all around.

Toward the end of the reading she asked me if I had any questions for her.  I told her I didn't.  I'd heard enough for one afternoon.  She had hit a couple too many nerves at that point....  My sister pipes in with "Do you think my dad is going to live much longer?"  I replied with "Satan never dies" To which Sharon looked at me and smiled.  She politely told Melissa the same thing.  Melissa retorted with I can't see how you just don't make peace with him Tara.  I told her I have.  Sharron told her I have.  She told her that just because I don't get along with the man doesn't mean that I haven't made peace with him and accepted the situation for what it really is.  She's right.  I have.  She also went on to say that my real resentment was toward my mother.  Duh.  I think we all already know that.  She suggested that Melissa bring mom in sometime.  I didn't think that would ever happen at the time. 

Turns out Melissa ended up taking her about a month later.  Sharon got such a god awful feeling from her that she refused to read her.  Instead she did some sort of chakra realignment that was supposed to put her chi in order or some shit.  Obviously it didn't work seeing as she's being an even bigger bitch than normal.  I would really like to see her have a card reading though.  I think she would be SHOCKED to hear what the lady could say about her and her ways.....

A couple of days after the murders Melissa called me and said that Sharon wanted to talk to me immediately.  I told her I couldn't, I was too busy.  Truth was, I didn't want to hear what Sharon had to say about the whole thing.  I still haven't been back....

Was it a learning experience?  Yes, yes it was.  She was a cool chick that I felt like I was really in tune with. She reassured me that I needed to keep doing what I was doing, keeping my head down and plowing though life and that eventually it would get easier.  Most of all, she provided assurance to my sister, that despite what everyone thinks, I'm ok, and things are going to be ok, which is what SHE needed accomplished by taking me there.

P.S. I'm still waiting to meet Mr. Right... She said by the end of May I should have found him, lol!