So Much To Say.....

And no time to write it.

Right now I feel like I'm being pulled at all ends.  Stretched to the limit, not necessarily in bad ways, but just stretched none the less.  Kyle leaves in a week again and I'm trying to spend as much time with him as possible.  I don't think that I'll be seeing him for a whole lot longer.  He's buying a house and moving in a totally different direction than what's going to work for "us".  Like I said in the beginning, I never meant for this to be a long term thing, but when you spend so much time with someone, you can't help the feelings you develop for them.  I don't know, maybe I'm just being stupid.  Who knows.  I'm not trying to jump to any conclusions about our relationship, but that's just how I kind of feel right now.

As for the baby daddy issue.  I can't get ahold of the other guy.  I got the paper confirmation saying Noah isn't the dad and I'm ok with all that.  Time to move on.  Based on your comments and talking with the people who actually care about me, unlike my family, it's my responsibility to let him know.  He may want nothing to do with Ev, but I sure as hell would be pissed if I had a kid and didn't know about it.  He won't call or text me back, so I pulled the shocker this morning and send him a picture mail of Ev that simply said "This is Evan, he's your son.  This is why I needed to talk to you."  I'm betting I won't get a response and yeah, it was probably a shitty way to drop a bomb like that, but that was pretty much the only way I could get my point across without him thinking I was trying to get with him or something like that.

What else?  Oh, I'm attending high school orientation for Brandon tonight.  It's hard to believe that my boy is gonna be in high school this fall.  Where did the time go?  This kid's gonna have a real hard time in high school.  He's so immature as compared to his classmates.  I shouldn't have let him start school so early.  I should have been one of those parents that keeps their late summer birthday kid out of school the extra year....  I say that, but then I look at Gavin, who is another month younger than Brandon (in his grade level) and he's adjusted so well.  He was my 4th grader with a 10th grade vocabulary.  He's a 20something year old stuck in a 12 year old body.  Poor Brandon.  I guess he'll get through it like all the rest of us did.

I didn't do a whole lot this weekend.  I wanted to go out Friday night, but everyone bitched out.  Well, I shouldn't say they bitched out.  They all came to my house and we drank and played Uno.  It was pretty amusing, but everyone was gone and we were in bed by 11.  Pretty boring shit.  Saturday night we went up to a bar that's close to the house and I'd never been to.  One of our favorite bands was playing and it was a good time, besides some drama with Tara.   I'll write about that in a separate post, because there's some emotional stuff going on there that I just need to get out.  We ended up having a good time and all, but her and I have tension.

JoJo and her man were there too.  That's pretty much the only reason that I went up.  I don't ever get to see her anymore.  Like I said, fun, but just weird.

Good news on the skin front.  All those steroids seem to be doing some good.  I'm not digging my skin off anymore and the spots are clearing up.  The pills are AWFUL though.  My God, they start dissolving as soon as you stick them in your mouth and taste like shit.  Oh well.  I'm still happy that I lost 5 lbs in the two weeks from the start of Christmas week to the end of New Years week.  That's good shit in my book, especially since I feel like all Kyle and I do is eat.  Must be burning some calories another way since my ass hasn't been to the gym in forever :)

That's all I got right now.  Hopefully I'll get the other thing I wanna post up today or tonight, but I'm not sure if I'm gonna get to it.  I also owe you some pics from Christmas and New Years, I promise I'll get those up, but I accidentally saved them on my other computer and not my portable hard drive.  Soon people, soon......

Happy Monday peeps :)